I can't believe that 2008 is over. This was truly a wonderful year for me, although it went by at the speed of lightning. I still feel like I'm in that stage that you go through in the beginning of a new year, when you can't seem to stop writing the previous year on all of your paperwork and stuff. I still feel like 2007 just ended, it's really weird. I really have changed a lot this year. When I look back at the way I used to be just a year or two ago, one word comes to mind: materialistic. I think part of the reason I was like that was because of highschool. Now that I have been out of that little world for a while, I am starting to really enjoy the real one. I have had a gradual realization that there is so much more to life. I have no desire to have the most expensive, designer brands hanging in my closet anymore. Instead, I just want to have what I need...and what I really need is my family. I have been so anti-family for my entire life, why do I need them anyways? In the end it's just me. I am living my life, not them. I have to answer for my decisions, not them. ME! But lately (within the last year/year.5) I have really felt differently about that. I have always valued my parents, grandparents, Paul, Meg and other people in my family tremendously... but now I find myself having a burning love for certain people I used to run in the opposite direction of. I really cherish all of the time we have together and I know it's not going to always be this way. One of the down sides of having a big family is that there is a better chance you are going to lose someone. I experienced the hardest loss of my life a few years ago, but consider myself extremely lucky to have not had to deal with anything worse so far. I can only hope that 2009 will be as good to me as 2008 was in that respect.
Secondly: New Years Resolutions. I never keep them. Maybe I have such a hard time keeping them because I make it really hard for myself to do so. I decided this year that I would be in that .1% of the population that actually keeps their resolution. I have a few, but my number one is to get on a regular sleeping pattern. I can't keep going to sleep at like 4 in the morning for no reason, sleeping the day away and then repeating the same pattern until I'm forced to go to bed early for something. I really want to feel better and enjoy the beautiful sunshine during the day more often than I do.
Okay, so Christmas was amazing. I got my new glasses and a video camera, both of which have been put into much use. I also got somewhere around 500,000 books and I have been locked in my room reading away for the past couple days. Aside from being sick, Christmas was a really great day. I am now looking forward to spending New Years in the same way that I have pretty much spent every other New Years of my life :). And I wouldn't change that for the world.
ps: my effort on going green has been going steadily well. I will post more on my new improvements later!
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